Not since last year. Last year, my brother decided to wake me up at like 3am on Christmas Eve (Well, Christmas Day, but yeah.) because he noticed the tension between me and my step dad. He literally kept yelling, “Why don’t you like him? What’s going on? Why won’t you tell us!” and I always already cranky because I was woken up. They all made me feel so I ran back into my room and literally cried myself to sleep. I woke up at like 2 that day and just stayed in my room. My Xbox from Black Friday that year was my Christmas present I didn’t really wake up to stuff under the tree, which I didn’t really care for since I haven’t since I was like 15 I think. That was just a horrible day to me.
I am not excited for this year. I FINALLY got a job and my mom told me if I get a job, I’ll get a car. She’s been saying that for years now. I had a job on my birthday this year and she told me I’d get one, but I ended up getting my hopes up. That’s basically how I feel this year. She flat out told me, “You’re not getting anythingfor Christmas because Christmas is for the kids. You’re 19. You’re not a kid anymore.” That kinda hurt since I’m her youngest and all. I don’t know. I’m just not excited for Christmas anymore. To me, It’ll just be like another Thanksgiving Day. I wanna go spend it with a friend or something, I don’t know.
lol this guy on grindr kept saying, “i know who you are. we had chemistry together. our teacher was a woman.” lololol my chemistry teacher was a man. then he kept saying, “make a facebook status and i’ll tell you what you said.” then this kid says, “oh we’re not friends on there.” like wtf. then he proceeded to block me after I said he was a stalker lol. he was!